Life and Anxiety :)

So, the other night I woke up in the middle of the night in severe panic.  How is my life flying by so fast?  I mean, college doesn't even seem real to me anymore.  I am getting emails from friends who just had babies, or got a divorce, or moved across country.  And, the sad part is...I didn't know they were pregnant, I didn't know they were having relationship problems, and  I didn't know they were looking for new jobs.  NOW, I am working a lot.  But, we all work a lot.  And, I keep meaning to make all my calls to my friends and fam, and the weeks are flying by like seconds.   I can have an anxiety attack just thinking about it.

Then, I was watching a story about how the average life span is 75 years.  OKAY, I am not ready for all this.  I really am not ready for any of the future, for the people surrounding us to get older.  To really be an ADULT.  I know I am, but sometimes I think I am just tricking everyone.  Can I curl up in a ball and end up in my nice cozy fuzzy Little Mermaid blanket and be 8 years old again?  Surrounded by my family and dog and Atari AND my old bedroom that I shared with my sis???  Okay, I guess it doesn't need to be that extreme.  However, even when I do take the time to really just breathe, it seems like that is not enough.

NOW, I cannot complain.  I mean...I just got back from the new swanky Guthrie.  And, if you aren't a Minnesotan, that is the big Theatre that is right on the Mississippi River.  A lot of big actors did their time at The Guthrie.  I saw a play called Third.  It was awesome.  And, it even made me cry.  Although, that isn't too tough to do.  I loved it.  We got to hang out in the bar after the show.  It was the Wine and Women Wednesday.  And, we are also starting a new happy hour that our show will be hosting at different restaurants.  But, we are calling it GABBY HOUR.  Get it?  Ha. 

So, I do have fun.  But, do you ever have the days you think to yourself....how did I get here?  And, how am I  34, not married, no kids, etc?  And, how am I working right where I think I should be, but I can't really piece it all together.  Maybe I am using too much Splenda in my coffee...because my short term memory sux.  However, I still sometimes cannot believe I lived in Chicago, Carbondale, TX, CA on Jane's futon, AZ and MN!  What?  No way...it all seems like it is someone else's life.

I am glad I have this blog.  It is like free therapy :)  I get to vent and have my anxiety blurted out on the web for the world to see.  Wait...now I am getting that embarrassed feeling.

Here is a pic from a party our station had with listeners last week.  EVERYONE in the pic is on our staff....

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